The Temptress

I am a flirt, no doubt about that. My nick name at school is "The Temptress". But you know what, some times being a temptress really really sucks. You see I have no rules on who and who not to flirt with. So I just flirt with everyone, which tends to get me in trouble because some boys are off limits. I don't like limits though, so I ignore them. Other times I flirt with guys who are my friends, but other than friendship there is no other feeling there. This tends to lead to giving guys false hope and I end up breaking their heart.

So you can see my problem. I don't know how to stop flirting and most guys don't want me to stop, but if I don't I'm just gonna leave behind a trail of broken hearts and ruined friendships. I think sometimes flirting is my way to make sure guys like me. In elemetry school I was always so jealous of the girls who had boyfriends and were popular. Now that I'm older and I'm finelly one of those pretty girls I take every oppertunity to prove to people I'm not the ugly kid any more.

Lately I've been talking with my friend Patrick about the acts we put on. Patrick is so good at being himself all the time and I want to be like that. So I've been naming all my different acts and deciding whether or not they really are me. The Temptress is another act for me, I made her up so that more people would like me. And at events like parties she completely takes over. So for the most part I need to get rid of her, not all because I think the real Emily is somewhat of a flirt as well, but she's not me. The real question is though, who's still gonna like me when I've found myself? Who's going to like me for me?