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This morning I lied in bed and decided that I was not going to get up. Not because I was lazy and tired, but because I thought if I slept through the day it would be like it did not happen and that way I could call up Nicole on Sunday and she'd be home to say, "Hey, what's up?". But it didn't work because I ended up getting out of bed still, and not only that but I showered and dressed and have continued my usual Saturday rutine. So Saturday did come and Nicole is gone.

Yesterday was pretty terrible. A bunch of my friends and I went to the movies to be Nicole one last time. The movie I hated because parts were so stressful I felt like I had to cry for the character and in the end everyone was with the wrong person but some how happy with it. I refused to be happy just because they were, the ending was wrong whether charactors see that or not means nothing to me. Well after the movie we stepped out of the theater and were standing there talking, giving good bye hugs. When I got to Nicole I stayed with her for a moment and out of no where tears drenched my face and her arm. This caught me completely by surprise because I had yet to cry since I found out about her moving. Well my crying caused a chain reaction of crying until all the girls there were crying. After getting over my tears a little bit I left. Since I'm the only one of my friends that can drive, I was the first one to leave.

That was the last time I saw her. I'm not sure when the next time I see her will be or if there will be a next time. My mom said I can have her over to our new house in Virginia this summer, since she will only be a few hours away when we move. But I don't know what's going to happen. It's funny how I'm so upset over her leaving when I'm going to be doing the same thing in 5 months. I guess I just didn't expect her to go first. But if this is what it feels like to have one friend leave, I can't fathom what it's going to be like leaving all my friends.